March 28, 2026 @
It's been a while, whoops. I've... been. I'm super burnt out with my current job but have had no luck with any of the other places I've applied. Everything costs too much and we're doing war with Iran 2: War Harder, I guess. 🙃 I haven't done a ton otherwise. I've been too miserable and tired from work every day to do much. I hate it but I don't have enough social battery to do anything else than go to work, despair, come home, despair, and sleep. The state of the world doesn't really motivate much else, either.
I did at least make a few new sprites that I'll put up after I finish this entry. Of course, Angelfire and Tripod also reached their End of Service (at least for free sites) just this month, so any other sites that may have had sprites are gone now, and couldn't even really be saved with Angelfire having constant issues in the last year or so making it really difficult to make sure stuff gets saved in the Wayback Machine. Anyone else out here loving the endless capitalism machine of enshittification?
Overall, I am tired. Whatever. Keep fighting the good fight, y'all.
February 22, 2026 @
Gonna go to bed soon, but I did want to actually write something in here, seeing as it's been over two weeks since I last did. I split my book and comic sprites page up because I have a ton of Marvel sprites (and that number will increase, mind you, I still have a ton of sprites I mean to make). Otherwise, there hasn't been a ton going on.
I'll try to remember to update my fic pages tomorrow/this morning (°ー°〃). It's snowed a ton here this past week and so I've been out of work on snow days and I still haven't gotten much done. At least I'm finally working my way through the stack of dishes that's been in my sink for... a while now.
...Let's not say how long.
...IN MY DEFENSE, I have a hard time with stuff like this because my executive dysfunction will kick in and I get overwhelmed. Literally the only way I've been managing it is I work on them while I listen to a podcast, then when my drying rack is full I take a break to do some NYT crosswords for half an hour, turn everything to make sure it gets all dry properly, and take another break for more crosswords before I put everything away and start the next batch. It's not efficient, but otherwise I stress out over trying to manage the whole process and nothing gets done.
Anyway, I need to get to sleep, so I'll just call it here.
February 7, 2026 @
Woo. o(*￣▽￣*)ブ Finally got the sprite page split up (and added a few new sprites), and got a few of the bigger pages' HTML updated to be more accessible. There's still a few left, but it's better than it was before. I also am considering changing the title of my site... The whole 'Bringing Back Asexy' thing started as a joke literally over a decade ago on my tumblr, then I stubbornly held on to it during the height of the Ace Disk Horse (derogatory) era out of spite. But now it's sort of old and doesn't really make much sense, especially on an entirely separate site. Anyone have any suggestions? I do have a few, so don't be super surprised if it changes in the near-ish future.
Anyway, now I'm going to take a nap. (*￣3￣)╭
January 25, 2026 @
Added a bunch more sprites. I'm probably going to have to split my sprites page into subpages because even now there's literally over a thousand on that page and it's a lot to load at once. Other than that, things are just great right now :)))))))))). Really digging living through historical events.
But yeah, I am still taking sprite requests for a nice little distraction from my rage and depression. Stay safe out there.
January 13, 2026 @
I got the Billboard Top 10 song quiz updated and split my pixel page so that sprites are on a separate page now!
On a completely unrelated note, I wish wish wish I had more writing skills because I want to write a fic with 004 and Murderbot (from Cyborg 009 and Murderbot Diaries respectively). There's so much there that could be so interesting- particularly comparing Albert and Murderbot's desire to not be a weapon/equipment and contrasting their views on being human (vs. personhood), where 004 wants to be human but feels that he can't call himself human because of his complete cyborg rebuild, whereas Murderbot has no interest in being human (and difficulty and trauma in regards to being seen as a person at all). Even just some fanart would be great, but, alas, I am devoid of that talent at the moment as well. Maybe at some point I'll at least write a meta and put it on my crossover shit page.
Anyway, please wish me luck in my ongoing job search! I have come to realize that there is no option to stay in my current job. I am completely burnt out. Change is very difficult for me but I'm at a point where I'm willing to risk it (though also there's a great deal of change with my current job at the moment too that's also not helping the burn out).
Also, I usually don't bring up politics directly on this site often because it's a little escape for me from the current situation, but I do want to make it clear that anyone who supports ICE, Trump, or Republicans in general is not welcome here. Fuck off. RIP to Renee Good and the countless immigrants who have died in ICE's concentration camps and CECOT.
January 7, 2026 @
“I'm going to get this site updated over the weekend,” xe said, naively. Oof, nope. I'll try and work on it for real this coming weekend I guess. Otherwise, I also need to update my Billboard Top 10 song quiz and I'm probably going to split my pixels page to have sprites on a separate page to reduce the load time. I'm super tired rn tho because my job sucks and everything costs too much. 🙃 I guess I did at least get quite a few sprites made, so that's nice, I guess?
December 30, 2025 @
Oops. I have been working on Marvel chara sprites, but I also keep getting sidetracked with JoJo ones. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Oh well. It's my site anyways. I do have a list of characters to work on, but if you think I'm missing a particularly obvious one, email me!
On a completely different topic, I do have a tiny list of Christmas music that doesn't immediately make me want to scream.
Grissom's Begrudging Christmas Playlist
That's about it. Just about anything else makes me want to throw the speaker/CD/whatever across the room.
December 28, 2025 @
Ughhhhhhh. Last Saturday (the 20th) I had my first meltdown in years. It was a culmination of a bunch of factors all combining while also not having any access to my normal coping methods to mitigate the issues. Sensory overload + forced Christmas stuff (which I already dislike) + lots of social interaction + my phone being screwed up + my own issues with time management + no personal space + dysphoria from my period + unplanned/spontaneous activities = a miserable Grissom only hanging on with bloody fingernails.
This threw me off for the next few days and I'm only just getting my full social energy back. At least Christmas was relatively handleable. (The secret, of course, is taking one's own car to family events so that you can leave when you want). I did get a nice squishy cube thing that's really nice to fiddle with which is probably my favorite, along with a set of pots to replace my mismatched thrift store set.
I did enjoy the time off, and got quite a few sprites I had been meaning to work on done. I'll update that page once I'm done with this log. I have most of my site pages updated to be more accessible (adding landmarks, aria-labels, and image alt text) except for some of the biggest ones, which will take some time to get through. I do have another four-day weekend coming up for over New Year's so that will probably be my priority.
December 17, 2025 @
Phew. (_ _)。゜ Okay, I am feeling better than I was yesterday. It didn't help that I was writing that late at night, ofc. But I also remembered that my doctor did recommend I up my anti-depressants/anxiety meds a little for the week I have PMS and now I do feel a bit better. Not, like, amazing, but functional. I didn't even cry at work today! So things are actually better on that front, now that my brain chemistry is less terrible. So I'm going to keep on working on making my pages more accessible for screen readers and we'll go from there uwu.
December 16, 2025 @
Good news, I got the Love Calculator game done. I based the code off this terrible old one, but a lot more complicated, including quadratic formulas for the results. I'm pretty happy with how it turned out, even if stackoverflow seemed a bit horrified by my code.
Bad news, I'm having serious PMS bordering on PMDD and my job sucks super hard. I am so tired OTL. I do at least have a job interview on Friday, though! Anyway, I need to get to sleep (which is really hard, I always get serious insomnia for the week before my period). PCOS sucks so hard. But hormonal BC hasn't helped and I'd have to go to a gyno to get an IUD or implant, which I really don't want to do. The only one I can go to is the one I went to the last time. She treated me like I was lying the entire time when I told her I wasn't sexually active and had no plans to start. I'm also hesitant to try an IUD or implant because it'll be a lot harder to fix if I have a bad reaction to them... I hate feeling like this...